I'm a little bit stronger.

I'm just a little bit stronger, everyday.

So...this will be a feeling-filled blog. The questions for the challenge were very hard hitting. But let's go ahead and get those taken care of before I move on to blog, k? 

30 Day Challenge

Day 5&6

Q #5: A time you thought about ending your own life.

A: The summer after I graduated was a rough point in my life. Like I realized how easy it was to hide behind a smile...and I did it well. There was multiply times I had those thoughts, but I had no reason at all. My whole mentality was "I'm going into college...parties, drinking, maybe pick up a new habit. Who cares anymore, it's college!" then i'd become depressed knowing that was completely out of character for myself and I really didn't know how to pick myself up from those thoughts, so I figured would be better if I was about to jump into something i'd regret. The problem was that I wasn't accepting the help that I truly needed from the people around me. I would cut myself off from everyone and just sit in my room alone, blaring music. I wouldn't eat, I barely slept, I drew/painted a lot. I believe that God truly did send my friend Will months before all this for a reason though. He stuck through the whole time, he was there always encouraging me. And my sis Laurel was there as well, making sure I wasn't sitting around thinking.

For you Will and Laurel, thank you so much...you have no clue what I was going through.

Q #6: Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

A:

1. I smile and laugh a lot, it doesn't always mean you were funny.

2. My mom and I made my prom dress my senior year.

3. I have owned a business of my own.

4. What I want to be vs. what I am is on 2 totally different ends of the spectrum.

5. I'm truly addicted to 2% milk and sunflower seeds.

6. There is a secret involved in the paintings on my wall.

7. I never quit, I don't believe in it.

8. I am 2 TOTALLY different people in the summer and winter; summer is my season that brings out the best in me.

9. Doesn't matter where, I love dancing and singing.

10. I love putting hearts everywhere.

11. I still sleep with the baby blanket; that was until a massive hole was ripped in it. :[.

12. If I could live on the beach for the rest of my life being a business owner selling pooka shell necklaces, I totally would.

13. I hate brand names. I mean, they're nice and all but they don't define me.

14. I am a true kid at heart.

15. If you're my friend, you always will be...not matter what you do to hurt me.

16. I had one boy who really screwed me over. Ryan's buffet was our first date when he promised Olive Garden.

17. I love writing stories, any kind of story except horror or mystery.

18. If I had the time and clothes to dress like a girly girl everyday...I wouldn't mind it :]

19. I play guitar and piano. 

20. If I could have been born in any era, it would have been Jane Austen's time. I would have been one the rebel writers making a living off my writings!

21. I would have been a model, but they told me I needed classes when I tried. 

22. I wanted to be a Suicide Girl for the longest time. I was gonna get the tattoos as soon as I got finished with school. I QUICKLY grew out of this stage.

23. I eat like fatty...one day it will catch up to me. 

24. When I wear perfume, the bottle always has to match the color i'm wearing. 

25. I have a hard time saying what I feel sometimes, but when I do you know it.

26. I don't like revenge, I don't believe in it. I believe that if the person did something wrong, eventually they will confront you when they choose. 

27. I love mudding and four-wheelers!

28. I've never been camping but i'd love to!

29. I ran out of legit facts on 20.

30. I love life. I love that i'm learning to grow through the good and bad times. I love that i'm way different than I was in middle school, high school, and especially summer. 

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So as for blogging content...my life's been interesting. 

It seems God has a VERY interesting sense of humor...for real.

I look and I see his car, his name, or even him! I swear...I saw his twin. It freaked me out...I was like O.o! 

I just love that now i'm getting over it, and all the sudden he's everywhere. Just saying. 

I just start laughing now when I see something...I find it helps A LOT.

I got the coolest picture today from Daniel! Check it out.

It's a ice flower :D

Before

Then when I was leaving my house, I saw our poor ice girl HEADLESS.

After

RIP; ELCA sister

But anyways. SOO Spring semester is going great so far. I'm starting to feel the pressure of school now...I hate getting up so early! Plus, the walk from class to class this semester is KILLER. But hey, check out this drawing for art class...I love it a lot.

I promise promise promise I WILL have shoot pictures up tomorrow from baby Cami's session! They turned out SO CUTE! I love that family, they are so sweet! :D 

Btw, they gave me 6 BOXES of clothes to have! I know I said I hate name brands but it's ALL name brands. I have never seen so many things of clothes in my life! And they just built their own house south of where I am...it's absolutely gorgeous! I mean, The Notebook gorgeous. Like when i'm engaged to be married and we are looking for venues...I told her I was coming to her first!

See? Beautiful!

Well, I must say goodnight!

Til tomorrow

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