Starting.

Well, Hi.
I'm Analisse. 
I guess I should explain why I decided to do this, that might be helpful?
Well...
                                About a week ago me and my boyfriend broke up...and yeah, it still hurts. We had been dating for a month plus some days and I KNOW, tell me i'm crazy for still being upset. I don't really know what went wrong and so I put up a note on Facebook saying how I really felt. This is what it said.

I wish...

I wish it would go away.

I wish I could do something.

I wish my mind would stop playing tricks, thinking, and dreaming.

I wish I could be as cold as my pool right now.

I wish I could know what went wrong...

I wish I didn't trust so much.

I wish I didn't FEEL.

I'm tired of crying, but I can't make it stop!

I wish people would stop asking and just be there.

I wish.

I wish I could explain how i'm feeling, but if I did you wouldn't understand.

Why did I think?

Why did I jump, take the chance?

I actually BELIEVED YOU GOD, way to say thanks.

Why am I STILL thinking, STILL hoping, STILL waiting.

God, really? 

WISHFUL THINKING. 

Thank you for putting me in a situation where I clearly got hurt!

My heart's beating, but I don't feel it when I want to.

It's like i'm looking up, but all I see is down...limbo?

I'm stuck in this nightmare. 

...but i'm fine.

"Got to be hurt sometimes so we can have happiness" -Sara

Well, I decided that since it felt good to get all that in the open...why not make it a daily thing? So starting on New Years Day, I will make a vow to blog everyday for a year. Any little thoughts that I feel I should write down.

Thoughts going into this:

Will I have interested readers? 

Will it ACTUALLY make me feel better in the long run?

Maybe i'll be able to answer some of my own questions. 

That's all for now, i'm talking to this guy named Cam? Apparently he's "perfect for me" according to a friend of mine. 

Cya! 

<3